兜兜转转又回到了那里

我很爱他...

我知道

我很想他...

那就想吧

我不想离开他

可是他已经离开了...

我可以不离开他吗？

你挽留了， 他留下了吗？

他走了

所以你追了去

心痛着， 因为自己追去； 但如果不追去， 却会连心都不会痛了， 因为心死了， 因为他离开。

你很爱她

我知道

你很想他

因为太想他

你离不开他

因为我很爱他....

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兜兜转转

又回到了那里的

是爱情

ALONE?

有没有试过一个人在外头， 慢无目的地游荡？

有没有试过一个人坐在路边，看来往的路人或车辆？

有没有试过下雨的时候一个人呆着看遗落在窗口的水滴？

有没有在夜深人静时， 一个人躺在床上看着天花板， 傻傻的... 什么都不想？

有没有人告诉过你， 这叫做寂寞？

寂寞...

会怕吗？

会怕一个人呆着吗？

怕寂寞侵蚀你的心吗？

不该觉得害怕吗？

别怕， 我不是在这里吗？

你会陪我吗？

会， 我一直都在啊...

至少有你对不对？

你有多久没回头了？

回头？

对啊..... 你回头看看...看看你的后面...

你忘了吗？

他们一直都在。

你从来就不是一个人。

我们都太常忽略一直都在的...

他们从来就不曾离开...

所以,

别忘了， 偶尔回头看看

你会发现， 其实一个人并不一定寂寞...

再见了，有人叫我“她麦”

她麦说, 人生需要精彩， 生活需要疯狂, 人不轻狂妄少年， 年轻时颠一点又如何？

她轻狂过了15，16；也疯狂过了17，18； 在用了19来沉淀自己后， 现在的她麦正在寻找属于她的精彩， 20++ 的精彩待续中..... ^^

漫步了20， 她麦决定选择平静... 但谁说平静不精彩的一种？ :)

今天决定更换部落格的名字和说明...

看了别人的部落格， 觉得自己的应该是时候进步了。

活着， 不就为了求进步吗？ :)

闭上眼... 感受

笑容

代表的是快乐？

还是悲伤的掩饰？

眼泪

代表的是伤心？

还是别有用心？

沉默

代表的是无话可说？

还是说了亦无用的无奈？

人们

所看见的

是否就是所有？

人

真的很需要闭上眼睛去感受

最真实的

通常是肉眼看不见的不是吗？

温暖的阳光

清澈的水

轻柔的风

种种的感受

还有

最感动人心的爱

你...瞧见它们了吗？

William Shakespeare

my english literature prof said, "If you has never learned Shakespeare, don't ever tell me that you have taken english literature."

see how Shakespeare takes a main role in english literature?

I learned Sonnet 18, Shall I Compare Thee to a Summer's Days? in the high school.... like it... but really don't understand what it means... well~ i was only 14.

and i have learned more Shakespeare's sonnets in this semester....

sonnet 73- That Time of Year Thou Mayst in Me Behold

sonnet 116 - Let Me Not to the Marriage of True Minds

sonnet 130 - My Mistress' Eyes are Nothing Like the Sun

Just realized that Shall I Compare Thee to a Summer's Days is Shakespeare's most famous sonnet. There were 154 sonnets which were written by Shakespeare were published in 1800s. Yet, people do believe that he had composed more than 154 sonnets....

Well-known Romeo and Juliet is also written by Shakespeare and then, Shakespearean Tragedy has become his signature of works. This leads people pay more attention at Shakespearean Tragedy than Shakespearean Comedy. How many people know that Shakespearean Comedies also have many classical quotes?

I watched the DVD of As You Like It in class, which is played by Globe Theater-- a theater which is associated with Shakespeare. I like the theater so much and watching a play in that theater has been listed on MUST DO THINGS for my London trip.

did some research about Shakespeare before writing my assignment.... realized that some people doubt that if he is a gay... hmmm.... why do you care? no matter who he is, he wrote great and classical works!

Shakespeare was is the greatest english writer-- that is the only thing i need to know.

i m too lazy

just too lazy...

lazy to deal with problems...

lazy to deal with complicated....

that's why i want to keep my life as simple as it can...

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i enjoy the sun....

i worship the peace....

dramas.... i have watched too many...

but the ones can me moved are getting less and less...

i don't look forward to dramatic life again...

i just want to make sure it is plain... plain enough to see the bottom.

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these days many people told me, "you know what you are doing, that is great."

yes. i know what i am doing... so can i choose to be silent?

i m lazy to explain...

to explain what i am doing.... you won't understand because you are not me...

honestly, i don't need others to tell me what should do and not to...

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i am trying so hard to close my eyes, ears and mouth....

because i m lazy....

lazy to deal with what is outside... when i m even lazy to deal with myself....

不如不见

君倦我亦倦
我苦君亦苦
情
何苦折君又磨我？
何苦纠我又缠君？

念
心累
心瘁
心疲惫
即见还挂牵

不如不见
.
.
.
.
.
不如不见

即将回国

又过了一个学期
又过了一年

过多了几天，她麦将正式用上“回国”两个字
回国...

什么感觉？

不太明确

回了再告诉你。 :)

比起兴奋， 她麦更多的是担心... 害怕。
离开的是她麦
留下的大家

是大家会变？
还是她麦会变？

其实她麦知道...
全部人都变了
希望不管大家怎么变...
最后看到彼此， 还是会回到像以前一样
希望变的是人， 但感情依旧。

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2010
好像很多人为感情烦恼

很多事情
就是那样一直纠缠着人
不是人不要放下
只是有点难

很多事情
人以为放下了
却突然一个不小心发现
原来
事情还记挂在心里

只是被人选择用别的事情把它遮掩
逃避...

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最近
她麦发现自己是一个
quite nasty的人

exhausted

how many times a person has to lie to himself in order to hypnotize him to believe the lie... to make it real?

or...

how long?